I came home from dinner at my grandmother's house tonight to find a text message on my cell phone. It's Cowboy: "I do not have any/all of the money I owe you. My life is a disaster. I will send you some soon."
I have not contacted him in two weeks because when I did he sent back texts about his life being 'all kinds of different now'. It practically destroyed me. Now? This is eating at me like you can not believe. I want to call him so badly. The problem? Is that it would be me there to listen to his problems all over again. Where was he with mine these last few months? Not to mention, isn't that why you left me for her? Shouldn't she be helping you so that life isn't a disaster? Or maybe she is what made it a disaster? OMG! My mind is racing.
I keep picturing him living with her, her pregnant with no job & now he has no job either. I do not see him coming back to me---although want that-----and this whole thing will not let me sleep tonight.
HELP!
