Yes, the Mechanic called. And apologized. And asked if I'd hang out with him since he won't see me for a whole week. Awww! So I agreed to go spend some time with him on my Sunday evening. I drove out to see him......40 minutes away......for which he offered me gas money. I told him I don't want his money but the offer was sweet.
I got to his house & the plan was to get coffee & head down to the water. He wasn't ready & told me to come in for a few minutes. I wasn't in his house 5 minutes when the phone rang & he answered. It was his dad. Home. In the driveway. So he said "We're outta here. You're going to have to meet my dad, though, so get ready." Ummm......ugghhhh.......oooohhhhh mmmmyyyyy..............what? So there we were....walking out of the house & running right into his dad. His dad was very nice, talked to me for a few minutes and complimented my car.
Then the Mechanic & I hopped into his truck & off we went....down to the water. We talked, laughed, and enjoyed eachother's company. He laid my head down in his lap & sang to me while looking into my eyes & kissing my lips so softly. Aw! I told him he's "such a puppy!" Too adorable.
Until it happened. "It" being the inevitable "where is this going?" question. Um. I don't know. He said his family would LOVE me. I told him mine wouldn't understand. They'd hate the idea that I am doing this & his face dropped. I felt so bad but it's the truth. He then asked about my upcoming trip tomorrow & said he'd move with me if I want to go to Fla permanently. He said he'd love to live with me. The adoration is so wonderfully consuming, but I am so upset that he will get hurt because of me. How was I supposed to know?
I left having had a good time & wondering what to do about the situation.
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The ride home was spent talking to Cowboy. Who professed his love for me. Still. He wants to try and make things work out. Even though there's the 3000+ distance. Even though he screwed me over. Even though he knows I am dating. He asked me to come visit over the summer. I told him that right now I can't see doing that, but I don't know.
And that's the truth. I don't know. I want to visit. I want to see him. I want to see if there are real feelings there or if it's the lack of closure with the situation.
