I Have No Right To Be...........But I Am

Cowboy called me while I was in the city on Wednesday night. I asked him if I could call him back when I was home & not battling the NYC lunacy. He said I probably wouldn't be able to get in touch with him because he was headed over to a friend's house to "comfort her". She was just fired from her job & he ....indirectly.... was getting that position. He felt bad & was heading over to her apartment to help cheer her up. He griped about the company & I thought 'Uh-Oh. He'll quit'. That's what he does. Something ticks him off & he jumps ship.

Anyway, I figured I'd try to get in touch with him anyway. It went to voicemail. No biggie. But my eyes went green. He never hauled himself out to console me. Not like this. And he isn't dating this woman....as far as I know. I left him a message & said I'd talk to him Thursday.

Well, no word from him on Thursday. There is a 3-hour difference between us & he works from 1-9...2-10? I don't know. And that's his time. Which means it's approaching 12 or 1 am here. I am not awake. So we wouldn't be able to talk.

Friday rolls around & there's no message, text, or missed call. I called him and thought I'd hear back. Nope. I sent a text. He replied his time 11 pm. Umm.....you get breaks. Jerk. Can't call me and we're friends+ for five years but you can run ragged for this woman you know three months. Yup.

He called me about an hour ago...10:30 his time. He's on the road to pick up people and head out to some Winter Festival. Sounds nice! I kidded around with him that I couldn't get him out at that hour. He didn't find it funny. I could get him out but if I wanted to be on the road by 9 am he was leaving Commack at 9:05 to still make the 25/30 minute drive to me. So I have a right to be bitter...just a bit. I then said I thought I hadn't heard from him because he went to console this woman & felt so bad that he 1) proposed to her to make her feel better & they are on their way to Reno or Vegas to make it official OR 2) quit his job & he's now living with her because his family would kill him if he did that again. He said "No, I didn't quit my job. Aren't there any good scenarios?" I pointed out that he skipped over the marriage/living with her thing & he didn't reply. I am not sure if he was avoiding it because I am semi-correct or if he ignored me because I ticked him off. He usually hates when I say things like that. But those green eyes get the best of me.

He said he'd "try" to call me later on. I said he shouldn't worry about it because it's no big deal. He said "Yeah. I may try. I don't know."

It's not that I don't want him to be happy. It's not that I don't want him to have a life and a girlfriend. It's just that I want a boyfriend first. Is that so wrong of me?

Awareness

Today, December 1, 2006, is the 19th Annual AIDS Awareness Day. It is also the 25th anniversary of the discovery of the true disease and it's complications. It's so weird to live in a world now where people have grown up not realizing that this is a serious problem. It is estimated that 4 million people are diagnosed every year. Frightening.

Be aware. Take care. Stay safe.

Crappy Pasta (Amongst Other Things)

It's the first Friday of the month & that means a training session at work. Once again, they made us sit through the same mombo-gumbo that we have heard for a few years now. The difference? The background settings for the powerpoint presentation were different. Oooooooooo.................pretty. We did not get breakfast. And then they slam us with some yucky pasta alfredo (that a few people can't eat for dietary/health reasons), a limp salad, and old bread for lunch.

And now my stomach hurts. A lot.





I have got to get out.

Doin' Xmas NYC Style

Wednesday I ran home from work so I could hop on a train to the city. I had plans to do some sightseeing & shopping. What a fantastic day it was. The weather was beautiful..........high 60s? In late November? This is ridiculous but fine by me when trapsing around Manhattan.

I went up to Bryant Park, where they have set up a village for holday shopping. What surprised us was that there was a skating rink & a bar/lounge. It was a bit early to eat so I looked at all of the pretty items in the holiday village and worked my way up to Build-a-Bear. I had something I needed to get & it can only be purchased at this store.

By 4:30 I headed back to Bryant Park & grabbed a table for two outside & was ready to order. I had a country salad that had pears, candied walnuts, and bleu cheese all tossed in a balsalmic vinagrette. It was so good. I also had a hot chocolate. How could I not? I was in the park, overlooking the rink, wathcing all of the people go by & have fun. I must say, I want to go back in the evening to order a martini & share either the cheese platter or the fondue.

Wrapping things up, I headed over to Rockefeller Center to see the tree lighting. I stood out there for a bit but it was INSANE! Houling it in to Sax Fifth Avenue, I spent some time wandering there. I fould a pair of Gucci to-die-for shoes but they are $565, so I don't think my feet will have the pleasure any time soon. About ten minutes before the lighting, I headed up to the 5th floor & chatted with a salesman. He let me look out the window to watch the switch flip, but couldn't let anyone know i was there. So I hid behind the curtain and watched.

I've never seen the tree not lit before, so this was impressive. I had such a good time.

The Morning After

Stuffed beyond belief, I was one of the crazy people out by 7:00 am on Black Friday. I love love love going through the fliers on Wednesday & Thursday & planning my strategy to hit all of the stores to get the great sales. And that is exactly what I did. I went to all of the stores on my list, managed to get the items I so desired, and was home by 12:00. I was exhausted, but thrilled that I had knocked off a few things from my shopping list for this season. I even managed to get myself a cute little something (oh please--like I wouldn't?). I got my Juicy zip-up (or down as my students tell me) hoodie. I adore it because it says "For Girls Who Like Stuff" on the back. And I look cute in it, too!

I wore heels to do my shpping in...and this was my downfall. I usually go out in heels but this day it just did not work. My feet & legs were dying by 11 and when KDP called me at 6 to go out, I couldn't move. I felt so bad not going but I physically could not walk. It was nuts! I must say that this is the second time in my life where I literlly shopped 'til I dropped.

It's the Holiday Season...

Happy Thanksgiving!

Wishing you & your's a very yummy day!

Take A Number

I met JW at Friday's....heeheehee....on Friday. I haven't seen him in like two months and we had a lot to talk & laugh about. Friday's has gone through a renovation....for the better? I am not sure. We got there to ener the PACKED building and went up to the host desk. They asked "How Many?" I said "2" and they printed up a ticket. On this ticket was a number.....72. I look around, wondering why I had this number, and I see these red, flashy boards with numbers. Umm...is this a deli? Nope. It's their new system. No taking names. No handing you a pager/buzzer thingy. Youwatch for yoru number to pop up on the board & then proceed to the desk. Weird. And they were on #40 when we got our number.

We were seated realtively fast. 20 minutes was all it took. Not bad! JW & I shared lack of dating stories, I got yelled at since he was my cover for going out with Gameboy, and I showed him pcitures from Gettysburg & Cleveland.

He whined.......a lot......about not having a girl so I suggested he try to talk to the waitress, Jasmine, since he kept drooling over her. He did what I think was flirting, but left with me & no number.

JW did treat to dinner, which was totally unexpected. I do not hang out with him so taht he'll pay & pointed this out. He said I have to pay for coffee next time we get together. That's a fair trade for me.