Draining My Strength

Two weeks ago, I sent Cowboy a text because he owes me money. It was brief....to the point.... and specified that I did not want him to contact me. No money. I waited a week & last Wednesday I called and left him a message that, again, asked for him to send the check because I want(need) it. Here it is. A week later. Still no money. I am taking off this Wednesday and not calling, emailing, or texting him because if he didn't send it when I mentioned it to him in December, did not send it after receiving the text, and did not send it after hearing my voice on his voicemail, why would he all of a sudden send it because I call this week.

I want the money so I can have him out of my life completely. If he isn't going to pay it back, then be honest & send a text saying "Not sending it". Or something. But I am going bonkers waiting for it to arrive. And, yes, it will hurt when I get it (or is that 'if') because then there will be no need to ever contact him again, but I am not getting better. I was in tears last night over not talking to him anymore. Yeah--it's been 2 months. I know. It's just how it is for me.

I want my money.

The Calls

EW! Mr. Sarcasm called me at 5:50 last night. Thank goodness I was in class & did not see this until almost 9:00 pm. He did not leave a message. I can't figure out why he would even call me. I blocked him as I ended that stupid im conversation from Sunday night.

I decided to call Mr. Unemployed on my ride home from work yesterday. It went just as I imagined it. He asked me where I was. I said I had just left work. He was shocked at the time of evening that I was finishing up. And then it proceeded to become a conversation where he reminisced about his days in college & how he 'thinks kids are today'. Thanks, buddy, for speculating about my job and not talking to me instead. Great.

It was so painful and pointless to talk to him. UGH! Does anything really ever come of this site?

*And, the Doctor...the first one...not Dr. London.....'winked' at me. Hey loser! You did that 5 weeks ago & I sent you an email.....you sent one back...I replied nicely...and I never heard from you again. So, ummmmm, can you say no?

Should I See the Red Flags? Or Am I Being a Pessimist?

I finally had a chance to call Mr Unemployed. He sent me his # a week ago & I've been biding my time for many reasons. Anyway, I decided to try calling him on my ride home last night from the Farm. It rang & rang & rang & he never picked up. Why? He doesn't answer numbers that he does not recognize. Hello! Then why are you giving out your number to people you don't yet know?

I was not going to leave a message because if you give me your # and tell me to call & then you don't answer numbers that are not familiar.........wait. Why am I playing this game?

So I log on last night & there is his screenname. I imed him telling him that I tried to call but didn't leave a message. He says "Oh, that solves it. I was wondering who called me." Dumb.

It just bugs me.

Well, around 10 pm last night, I look at my blinking phone & see I have a text message:

"Have a good night. I will def pick up next time. Hope I didnt miss my one chance to talk with you"

UGH! Already you are texting me? Already you are doing the 'familiar' thing?

I really despise Cowboy for putting me in this situation! Really Really Despise!

It Played My Heartstrings

I saw "Music & Lyrics" last night & had such a good time. Okay, okay. I have not been to a movie since early November & I saw a re-release of a film.....not even a new one. And yet this weekend I saw two new films. Go figure! "M & L" has gotten some bad reviews but I thought it was sweet. Sure it wasn't Drew Barrymore's best role (she seemed too awkward in the part) and Hugh Grant had some weird dance moves that made his aging body look as if it were dry-heaving, but the whole movie was cute! Perfect date movie. If I had a date. Which I do not. Because the men I am meeting are not even worth the minutes in my cell plan, let alone time in the dark for them to wonder if there's a possible "kiss" moment that will (never) arise.

I liked this film so much I would even sit through it again in the theater. So so cute!

Mr. Sarcasm Makes A Cameo Appearance

I was looking up movie times last night and had taken the block off of my screen name......and the instant I did that, Mr. Sarcasm imed me. Here's how it went:


Sarcasm: hi
Me: hi
Sarcasm: how are you?
Me: good and you
Sarcasm: good. Hows the weekend going?
Me: fun but cold so far....y
Me: ur's?
Me: oops--your's?
Me: my laptop is sensitive today
Sarcasm: Its going ok
Sarcasm: like you :)
Me: ?
Sarcasm: sensitive. JK
Me: ummm.....whatever
Sarcasm: Im busting chops/ Thats why I put JK (just kidding)
Sarcasm: on you still on the site?
Me: sort of---im just logging on once a week til it runs out
Sarcasm: I dont even remember your porfile name. I havent talked to you inawhile
Me: you just checked me out a few days ago
Me: and why would you im someone you dont remember?
Sarcasm: cause if I have you on my AIM there is a good reason for it
Me: so do you remember me at all?
Me: name?
Sarcasm: if I saw your profile I would
Me: so you called someone (whom you don't remember) sensitive?
Me: I just want to make sure I have this correct
Sarcasm: I was busting chops cause of what you said before through IM
Me: okay....but what if I was one of the women who doesn't like or doesn't get
sarcasm?
Sarcasm: then I would apoligize and move on
Me: shouldn't you know with whom you are iming before you do that?
Sarcasm: the IM doesnt have any way to give me a nick to a face
Me: funny...I remember you...Mr. Sarcasm who lives in N. Bellmore, is a cop in
Brooklyn,serious(life threatening) motorcycle accident
Sarcasm: yep
Sarcasm: guess you are better than me
Me: has been on match a year......used to patrol the Bronx and let things like
open alcohol containers slide
Sarcasm: easy with that
Sarcasm: wait I think I remember
Sarcasm: you here?
Me: yes
Sarcasm: We have not met and I thihnk you told me about one you had met talking
about a pic you have up about beers being shown
Me: yes. And you shoud know my name, too
Sarcasm: see Im not crazy
Sarcasm: you live in levittown I thinik
Me: you only remember now because of all of the info I provided from conversations
we had. Had I left you to your own thoughts you'd have no idea......and no I
do not live in Levittown
Sarcasm: what are you talking about? ALl teh nifo you gave me.
Me: I have to get moving. Bye.
Sarcasm: should I now bother
Sarcasm: not bother*

I blocked him at this point & had to log off anyway. Is this the most ridiculous thing ever? How (and why) do you im someone you don't even remember? Psycho!

The 411 on Reno 911

Elaine (Crak) had to review "Reno:911" last night for her column and asked if anyone wanted to go. I have not been to a movie since early November so I figured I'd give it a shot.

We met at the Franklin Square cinema to see this pointless Comdey Central movie & find out just how bad it really is.

Oh, it's bad. But I did laugh. For a few reasons. The main one is that I just picture the students I work with who are in the crimial justice program to turn out to be like the officers in this film. Not too bright. Not too aware. Totally into themselves.

I was laughing so hard at one point I was in tears. This is a good thing, seeing as my tears are usually sad & over Cowboy. All I kept picturing was cameras planted at my job & that they got most of the script from my building. Frightening but so true.

If you want to laugh over jokes you already anticipate being made, this is the movie for you.

Dr. London

The latest email of interest is from a dr. in the city. He says he is from London, moved here 10 years ago, and has his own practice. Uh huh. We shall see. He does not have a picture displayed and that is because he does not want patients or colleagues to find out he is on this site.

I sent back an email asking him a few basic questions.....avoided the whole 'dr' thing......and requested a picture as well. I am thinking of asking him to meet me at Katwalk when I go in 3 weeks. May as well meet him someplace where I will be having fun no matter what.