I have had to cancel two dates this weekend. I was supposed to hang out with the Mechanic last night but was not able to stand at all. On top of that, I had (what I think was to be) a date with another unnamed suitor (still trying to create one for mr. unknown) and had to cancel that as well. I am in no shape to haul myself back in to Manhattan for another late night when rooms are still spinning for me.
And, the theme song for my week is JT's "What Goes Around" since Cowboy has called me Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday to talk. The GF/fiance has totally called off everything because an old boyfriend is back & she's interested in him. Plus he has money & Cowboy doesn't. Didn't I call it back in December? Oh yeah. Talking to him feels beyond natural to me, but at the same time, hearing his desperation is turning me off. Not to mention the fact that all of these others are turning me on anyway.
I hope I didn't blow the two 'toys' I could have played with this weekend. Prayers for me that they understand the 'life of a rockstar' is a difficult one to live!
