The Never Gonna Happen Meeting with Mr. Sarcasm

So Mr. Sarcasm has been iming me the instant my name pops up on the aol screen. My laptop is running slow lately and the screen is not even open when his im appears on my screen. Had we gone out on a couple of dates, I may find this charming or endearing. But, we've talked on the phone 4 times & chatted a bit, but that's it.

And each time we talk I become more and more turned off by him. He discloses way too much information to me. He doesn't ask me questions about myself, other than the married "How was your day?" question. Bleh!

He called me while I was out with MIU last week & left me -- count them -- two messages. So I felt bad & called him back. He pounced and wanted to know when we could meet. I was trapped and told him we could meet on Monday at 7:30ish.

So Wednesday I get the email "When are we meeting again?" and I said Monday. Thursday he called and talked about horrific things he's seen as a cop that I specifically asked him to stop telling me about. I should have hung up the phone but I felt it would be rude....stupid manners....and stayed on.

I get the email Saturday about us meeting on Monday. It's confirming the time and place AGAIN! Am I the only one listening to our conversations?

And what's in my inbox for emails today? Another one saying how nice it is that we are meeting tonight at 7:00. Wait. We said 7:30. And now I am not going. Not because he go the time wrong but it's too cold out, I forgot I have a midterm to create, and I am not interested!

I have also checked my profile and every time he talks to me he checks out my profile. How about if you haven't retained any of the info from it or from speaking with me, I can't be bothered. I need someone with some form of memorization skills. ACK!

What's Up, Doc?

I have been slacking on my Match men posts. I will start with Doc. He is not a real doctor, nor do I actually know why he would refer to himself as such. It's his screen name on the site & it's even his email address. He sent me an email when I first signed up three weeks ago & I replied. We email-tagged on the site for two days & then he told me to email him at his personal account. So I did. And it took him 2 weeks to reply. I lost interest by this point. And when he did reply it was him asnwering my questions and not asking me any. So I have gone off to seek a second opinion. See ya, Doc!

Cabo Cabo Cabo

Elaine & I were supposed to head in to Don Hills (I thought it was dunhills.....don't ask) last night to see her ex, TLS, play with his new band. It took me 50 minutes to get to Valley Stream & it seemed to take almost as long to get to the sation because people can't drive.

I bought my ticket, not noticing all of the people milling around in an odd and confused manner, and plowed up the stairs to wait in the little room until our train arrived. We get in to the waiting room & an announcement comes on "Please be advised that due to the inclement weather, the Rockaway, Babylon, and Hempstead lines are temporarily suspended". WHAT??? Okay, it's cold and raining outside, but it's not inclement weather. Why are we not on a train?

So we hang around. E. textx TLS to tell him we are running late. We wait longer. I text Gameboy to see if he knows why this is happening (he did work on subways & knows MTA people). He has no clue. E. texts TLS again to say we won't be making it because it is now almost 8:30 and he goes on at 9 and we will only get there by 10ish IF the trains start moving. He texts her to take a taxi and he'll pay. Ummm......no. It's one thing if he sent a car from his car service, but I do not think taxi cabs run into lower Manhattan from Valley Stream.

So now what? We head to RVC to find a bar. We need drinks and men.....in either order. We ended up at Cabo, a cute little bar/restaurant in the heart of the village. E. ordered a Mexican slide (Friday's mudslide) and I ordered a Sangria which was very yummy.

We people-watched. No good-looking guys there! So, to sober up a bit, we went to Starbucks and sat there drinking coffee. We rambled on about who knows what, but it was fun because I remember giggling a lot.

I got hom early (11:30) and settled in to watch a movie. I didn't notice it, but my phone had a message left at midnight. Gameboy called. Why? To say "hi". This is the second time ina week. Again, may I remind all of youthat he never called me when we dated and it was I had to call him. Now with the policy in place he can call me? I am so confused.

I found out this morning that there were power lines down on the track in the VS area and that is why we did not make it to the show. Darn!

Happy Groundhog Day!

Phil & Charlie didn't see their shadows today for it is too overcast to see much of anything. Does this mean Spring will come sooner? Doubtful. But that's okay. And, I posted this last year, but I still find it funny:

"How much ground could a groundhog hog if a groundhog could hog ground? Only the Shadow knows!"

I am so corny!

The Blogger Anniversary

I just realized that I started posting one year ago on Feb. 1st. I can't figure out how (or why) I have kept up with this, but I have. In one year's time, I have posted over 210 commentaries, laughed, cried, travelled, met new people, gotten my heart broken, and had amazing adventures. That's all in one year. I wonder what the next has in store. Guess you'll all have to keep 'posted' to find out!

Totally Random!

So I was logged on to AOL to check out some stuff & an IM comes through. "Hey" is all it says. I look at the name & it's Mr. Italy....the guy I was "seeing" between Gameboy & Cowboy. There was nothing there between us (if you ask me) but it kept me busy and helped me to move on. He was not right for me then.

So I send it back "hello?" and he says "don't you know who this is?" and I said "i think so, but am not sure". He sends it back "Vin. don't you remember me? I am crying now that you've forgotten about me".

The last time I saw him (or even heard from him) was summer of '02 when I was dating Cowboy. We met up at a Fridays (or something) and talked and drank & he got a bit pushy (as he always did) and I wasn't feeling it because I had feelings for Cowboy.

So, here we are so many years later & he asks if I am with anyone. I sent it back that it just ended. He's not in anything either. And so it begins: "so did you miss me?" That was always his question to me. I didn't know enough about him to miss him nor do I enjoy flirting that way when you didn't miss me except for the idea that it may be a hook-up for you...loser. He asked me what I am doing this weekend & I told him to meet me in the city tonight because I am going with Elaine (& others) to see TLS play in his new band. He sends it back "swing by Brooklyn". Ummmmm.............who 'swings by' Brooklyn? That's like saying "Hey? Going to the city? Stop by Newark first!" So I sent him my # and said to call & come. He won't.

I will get a call from him in like 2 weeks on a random Tuesday and he'll say "Hey. How's it going? Miss me?" and he won't say his name. He won't say my name. This is his noncommittal way of keeping women at arm's-length and still trying to have fun.

I must say that when I knew him he was hot. As in Hottie Danny hot. But it's been almost 5 years and we know what happened with Gameboy's hair. ISSUES! Anyway, let's hope.

When It Catches Up With You

I have been running continuously since Cowboy destroyed me. I have gone back to work (occupational hazzard of the educational profession) and I have taken every "out" that has come along & even made some of my own.

The problem? The tears haven't lessened. I can cry at a moment's notice. And I am tired. I don't mean "Oh I need to lay down for a little while" tired. I mean I had to cancel plans for last night (and non-existent plans with Crak that I didn't know about) and I laid down at 9:00 to watch t.v. and fell asleep at 9:30. My mother vacuumed (literally) around me and I didn't blink. I woke up at 7:30 this morning to realize that I hadn't gone to bed. Shocker! To say the least.

And can I point out that people who continue to bash Cowboy to me aren't doing anything except hurting me. I get it. You don't like him. I understand you "hate him for what he has done". I can't bring myself to hate him. I loved him & still do. I wish he was in love with me. I can't take the last 4 1/2 years & pretend they didn't happen. I can't take the feelings I have and say "Oh well!" and move on. I thought he was my future & was thrilled with this notion. I am not able to shut it off like a switch as I can with most feelings for people or things. So, Yes, you are entitled to feel however you want to about him. This does not mean I have to listen to it. To top it off, let me point out those of you who still pine away for someone who you dated....and to some of you who didn't date "that someone" but were friends with just so you could be close to them and have that 'unrequited love' crap that I stood by you for. Was it 4 1/2 years of love, memories, trips, pain, and support? Was it real enough to consider having as your future? No? Then leave me alone. Yes, I may be wallowing in this but I can't make myself stop having feelings for him. But, I am also the one who is going out. All of the time. Yes, the running is exhausting but I have not gone hermit & I am trying to find someone to occupy my time so I don't cry on the drive home after the evening's festivities are over. So, give me what I need & if you do care for me at all you will be patient and understanding rather than trashing the guy I still am in love with.